I feel a lot of sympathy for this view. I think all of us feel doubts from time to time. I can't make your decisions for you. However I do have some comments that you may (or may not) find helpful. First, a lot of intellectual problems with Christianity are caused by trying to defend the indefensible. The fundamentalists have managed to convince a lot of people that in order to be Christian you have to be a Creationist. This is based on a view of Biblical authority that I find completely unconvincing, for both Biblical and theological reasons. I do place a high value on the authority of the Bible, but primarily as a *witness* to God's acts of revelation, not as itself a separate revelation. I believe it is in general a reliable document. A lot of doubts about it come from speculative literary analysis that I have problems with. It is somewhat interesting that archaeologists -- who you'd expect would have the best objective tests -- generally evaluate the accuracy of the Bible as being higher than those who use strictly literary methods. On the other hand, it is still a human document, and I see no reason to think that its authors have any sort of supernatural guarantee of accuracy. There's a whole list of "problem passages". Many of the problems go away when you understand the historical background or fix up translations. But there are still lots of pretty clear disagreements. Ones that I happen to remember are the number of people (or angels) at the empty tomb, the two geneologies of Jesus, disagreements in numbers all over the place (e.g. the census as reported in I Ch 21 and 2 Sam 24), etc. Inerrantists propose resolutions for most of these, of varying degrees of plausibility. But at some point it becomes more convincing simply to admit that we have the same kind of variations we have in any human accounts. I don't understand why this creates such a problem for people. God is willing to let his Son be crucified, to commit the success of his mission to the somewhat uncertain efforts of the Church, and yet people find it inconceivable that he allows accounts of his actions to be handled by fallible humans. I think this is all tied up with the search for guaranteed answers. It seems like many Christians want to believe they are on the one, guaranteed true path to God. Before the Reformation, the Church was expected to provide guaranteed answers. For Protestants, this has been replaced by the Bible. I just don't see it. I think our unity is in Christ, not in having a single guaranteed set of doctrines or even morals. I don't see either Christ or the rest of the NT promising Christians assured answers. Paul spent much of his time trying to get varied groups to respect each other. There are a lot of genuinely difficult questions. You see them on soc.religion.christian and talk.religion.misc all the time: What is the state of the soul after death? What parts of the OT Law are Christians expected to keep? It's probably a good sign that Christians are concerned about issues like this. We are called on to live as God would have us live. But if God intended to give precise answers of this sort, he set about it in a singularly incompetent way. I happen to think that he did not. While it's always dangerous to speculate on God's motivations, I can suggest an obvious one. I believe by the Reformation people had to some extent replaced faith in Christ with faith in the Church. Something similar can happen to Protestants as well. By not allowing a single definitive theology, we avoid replacing a personal commitment to Christ by a commitment to a set of doctrines. My own approach, for what it's worth, is a radical one. I follow Paul (or what I believe Paul said) in rejecting any kind of Law for Christians. I believe we have to base Christian ethics on basic Christian principles such as love of our neighbor and fidelity to our commitments, and not on specific laws. Most particularly, I think Paul's letters are to be taken as attempts to carry out the program in his circumstances. But they do not establish laws for us. I find it quite ironic that the great enemy of the Law has Christians hanging on his every opinion as if they were a new set of commandments. However I recognize that there are Christians who feel they need specific rules. I can only respect their keeping of the Sabbath, etc., as their way of honoring God. There are a number of serious problems which have caused Christians untold anguish. Some of them I consider unnecessary. Others are harder, but I believe we have at least good grounds for hope. Let's look at a few specific issues: 1) Evolution. Although I regard the Bible as generally accurate, I find it hard to take the early parts of Gen. as serious history. Among other things, Gen 1 and 2 seem to be separate, mutually incompatible, accounts of creation. Given the great similarity of the creation accounts, the flood story, etc., to general Mesopotamian mythology, I think it's pretty easy to guess what happened: The Israelite records and historical traditions would only have gone back so far. After all, before the call to Abraham the Hebrews didn't even exist as a separate people. For earlier history, and creation stories, it is natural that the Hebrews would have used the same traditions as the people they came out of. In fact I see the two creation accounts as a sign that the editor of Gen. knew what was going on: He provided us two different accounts because he knew there was no single agreed-on history going back to the creation. 2) Changes in ethical standards. If all you had were the first few books of the OT, you would conclude that God was a war god, who wanted his people to kill everybody else. Yet the NT is nearly pacifist, and Christians now consider it immoral to kill people just because they have a different religion. I don't see anything wrong with admitting frankly that ideas in this area have changed, and that there are parts of the OT that would now be considered immoral. It's obvious that in early times many people thought God was telling them to kill all of their opponents. It may be that they misunderstood him. E.g. that they could conceive of no other way to implement his demand that they separate themselves from idolatry. Or it may be that God raised his standards as people became capable of understanding his purposes better. Or some combination of the two. But I am appalled by the discussions in talk.religion.misc trying to justify why whole populations deserved to be killed. I believe what we should see in the OT is how God, through the Prophets and other inspired leaders, led his people out of the tribal mentality into the concept of his people as a "light to the Gentiles". 3) How can God intend to torture most of humanity forever? I think the simple answer is that he doesn't. The exact details of what will happen to people in the Judgement seem rather obscure in the Bible. Anyone who has been reading talk.religion.misc or soc.religion.christian will know various people believe in - eternal punishment of all non-Christians - a second death for those who are not saved (i.e. that they cease to exist after the judgement) - that God will find a way to save everyone There is some evidence for each of these, though the third one is certainly the hardest to justify. I am not going to try to sell any specific view here. But there are some that I'm quite convinced are not acceptable. The clearest is the idea that God decided before the foundation of the earth that he was going to damn 90% of the human race. While apparently based on some statements of Paul's in Romans, this view turns Paul's argument on its head. Paul is talking about God holding back on salvation of the Jews so as to include the Gentiles. He's not talking about damning anyone. He's talking about God's plan to save everyone. (I'm not giving a specific citation because you really need to read pretty much all of Romans to see the argument as a whole.) I frankly do not have any completely coherent view that makes sense of everything said in the NT. But I do believe God's intention towards all people is good. While Christ certainly speaks of God judging people, and of a narrow gate (Lk 13:22), he also assures us that while salvation may appear impossible from a human perspective, for God everything is possible (Mk 10:27). I also note that both the passage in Luke and Mark end by saying "Then those who are now last will be first, and those who are now first will be last." Which is somewhat different from eternal punishment. But while I do not know exactly what God will do (and I don't think anyone does), I think we do know enough to guide us in our Christian life: - we know we are supposed to tell the Good News to everyone. - there is no need to reject spiritual insight when it is present in other religions. In Rom 2 and elsewhere, Paul tells us that God can make himself known to others in their hearts. That doesn't mean that we regard all religions as "equally true", just that it is possible for God to reveal himself to people in spite of their errors, something which is at times useful for Christians as well... - we know we are not supposed to judge anyone. There has been some debate on this, as there are other places that say that the Church is to use judgement to maintain its own purity. But as Paul says, this is simply a matter of maintaining our own standards. Judging outsiders is God's business. (I Cor 5:12-13) That doesn't mean that we cease to tell people about Christ, just that we understand that we don't know everything that God is doing with them. - we trust God when he says that he loves everyone, and believe that he will find a way to reconcile mercy and justice. The Prophets could see signs that God would send a Messiah to deal with his people's sin. But they certainly didn't anticipate in any detail Christ's death and resurrection. Similarly, we can see some aspects of God's approach to humanity, but his final actions may well take some form that we cannot now foresee.